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Sunday, August 29, 2010

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forgot to register one of my courses! how dumb.






When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are



My current favourite song at the moment. Love the lyrics! Sweet :))


Saturday, August 28, 2010

Blogging has become an everyday thing for me now.

Met up with cin and sy today (which is friday; it's already past 12 when I'm blogging). Had been craving for xiao long bao quite some time back so we decided to statisfy our craving today at crystal jade during lunchtime. shopping after that :)) i bought shoes again -.- I will come back with a pair of shoes after every shopping trip without fail. I should seriously stop buying shoes if not I will get nagged at again. Had ice cream at Tom's Palette after dinner. When both of them left, waited for about an hour for sisa to end her training since I was nearby. She didnt even appreciate it can! She said, nobody ask you to wait what, you can go home first right. So nice of her! thanks ar -.-

alrights, off to bed now. tired and sleepyy.. nights world :)


Thursday, August 26, 2010

Initial plan of going out was cancelled so I decided to make a trip down to TTSH to pass the timesheet to my friend since she needed it and also had lunch with the other temp staffs there. Headed to united square to walk around alone. The feeling of roaming around alone, taking the train alone and taking bus alone is terrible, at least to me. Dont know about all of you out there. When I'm alone, I tend to think of a lot of things or rather tend to feel very emo. Today, the emo-ness that I had felt while I was alone was exceptionally bad ever since that incident happened. Sometimes I do wonder, how do people actually feel when they are alone.
I hate to be alone.
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This summer.
At least I was once happy because of you. Thank you and goodbye. Period.


Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Message from God:

On this day of your life, Jocelyn, we believe God wants you to know ... that it's your heart that knows who loves you, not your ears or eyes.

Listen to the words, and you can be fooled. Look at the actions, and you can be fooled. Feel deeply into your heart, and then you will know the truth. Who makes your heart soar now? Well, what are you waiting for?

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The more I think of it, the more I think I'm the one at fault.


Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Promises VS Principles
which would you choose.

I chose to break the promise. Only for that particular moment. I will make up for the broken promise another day. But I guess that day won't ever come again. Seems like breaking the promise is the best thing to do if you know the whole story. Then, you might ask, why make the promise in the first place if you know you have your own principles. I'm so disappointed in myself. Such a letdown. I'm not trustworthy at all. I just feel that I'm to be blamed for whatever that had happened. When things happen, I feel that it's the other party's fault but after everything is over, when i start to think deeper, I will just blame myself for everything. Oh man! what's wrong with me.

Maybe if I had continued working, things would turn out so much better.


Monday, August 23, 2010

Walk-a-jog with ttsh ex-colleagues on sunday. Woke up at 6.30am! It had been so long since I last woke up at such a timing. Yea so headed off to west coast park for our 5km walk. It really feels good to sweat it out! Actually..I sort of enjoy exercising just that I always don't have the determination coz I don't like to exercise alone. I need an exercising partner!!!

Grandma's house for dinner on sunday night. :))
Watched yog while we were there. It's great to see all the cousins and relatives sitting down together, watching yog and at the same time cheering for them. Especially while watching soccer. S'pore vs Haiti. I think the whole block can hear our cheering. haha!

arrgh! school's starting..


Saturday, August 21, 2010

It's time for an update again. Had been going out consecutively for the past 3 days and..yea I spent quite a huge sum of money :( So I shall coop myself at home during the weekends to atone for my sins. haha sounds so serious.

Anyways, met up with my TTSH ex-colleugues on thursday. Shopped around and got myself a top. Need to stock up my wardrobe before school starts! And as usual.. mum will start to nag at me and sisa for buying so many clothes coz the wardrobe looks like it's going to explode soon! [That's coz we share the wardrobe! I still think I dont have enough clothes. :( ] hah! Then had dinner at Sho Teppan. Food was not bad but not exactly fabulous I think.

Pictures time :D


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I'm finding a thousand reason to convince myself that you're not worth it but there is always one reason that will make me give in again and I hate that.



Thursday, August 19, 2010

If you remembered my previous post, I mentioned that I was craving for ice cream. And..yesterday I had ice cream TWICE!! It wasn't intentional! Now I feel fat! :(

sy and I were chatting on msn and we were both craving for ice cream so we decided to meet in the afternoon yesterday. So we had swensen's ice cream and went to helix bridge and IR to take a look.

In the evening, met up with my JC friends for a movie and dinner + desserts. Dessert was suggested coz all of us dont have small change to return each other money. Arr..so that was when I had my 2nd round of ice cream :((
Watched Love in disguise by Wang Lee Hom. Oh man! I totally melted when he played the piano and sang! attractive! If someone did that for me I will totally just fall for him! opps..heh heh :DD



Whenever I think of you, I feel like... changing my mind.



Tuesday, August 17, 2010

going out the next few days. gonna be broke. :( hmm...shall enjoy while i can before school starts.


You know what is holding you back. No use holding on to the impossible. If it's meant to be, it will come back to you eventually.


Sunday, August 15, 2010

It's monday tomorrow again. 2 more weeks of holidays till school starts :(
I'm still slacking like nobody's business for the past 2 weeks.



Sometimes I really do not know why I feel this way. It feels terrible, not knowing what the other person is doing. It feels terrible, not talking to the other person for days. It feels terrible, not seeing the other person for days and weeks. oh man! arr! I feel like just emptying my mind for once.


Thursday, August 12, 2010

Life's boring...at least for me. Maybe, just maybe I should have just continued working.

Met up with best friend yesterday for dinner. It really feels great to talk to her again. I LOVE MEETING MY BEST FRIEND~! :D


Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Don't promise something, break the promise, then say that you're sorry.


Sunday, August 8, 2010

At times I really feel like being a child all over again. Nothing to worry about.

Had dinner at grandma's house today. Never fail to make me feel bloated everytime after dinner. :)
When you reached your 20s, the question that relatives asked would always be about relationship. oh wells. I'm beginning to dread family gatherings a little now.


So much on my mind, so much to say, yet I can't.


Saturday, August 7, 2010

I'm craving for ice cream like nowww!! how how? should i buy it to satisfy my craving?

happy posts from now on..i hope..


Friday, August 6, 2010


I never want to not know you. yes. that's what I want to say to you even though you will never read this post.

It's hard..to let go. Everytime I try to keep my mind occupied with some other things, images of the times we spent together would somehow find their way into my mind. I just can't let go..

I know I may sound so stupid..but wells..I just need some time to get over you. I promise, after this week, I will move on. Who knows, maybe you're not even affected by it. whatever..
Looking at those elderly couples who will still hold on to each other's hands even after so long, I do believe in true, ever-lasting love. It's just a matter of time before you meet him/her.


Thursday, August 5, 2010

Conclusion: He's a total jerk!!! Not worth it at all! I will not think of you anymore. Goodbye forever.

Felt so much better after going shopping with sy. bought a dress and a pair of shoes. :))




Wednesday, August 4, 2010

I am trying really hard to keep my mind occupied, watching funny videos, excercising to sweat it out.. so that I wont have to think of you at all.

Even though I really hope that time could turn back..



I feel terrible. Knowing that everything will not be the same anymore. Knowing that both of you will not talk like how you used to. It's even more terrible to know that he doesn't even talk to you anymore, let alone meet you. He said that meeting up would lead to a quarrel so it's best not to meet.

Maybe he is showing his true colours now. If you really like someone, even if it means just meeting up for a meal or just to talk, you would be more happy than ever to be able to see her right? why must those things get in the way? is it really so important? he said he would rather rest at home if i dont agree to his request. what is this. a relationship is not built on that alone. I find that he is no longer the guy i know anymore, or maybe i dont know him long enough. He said that he had genuine feelings for me but i just cant seemed to see it now after all that he said. I dunno whether to believe him or not now. Sometimes I still feel that he is saying all that to spite me. I dunno anymore..

I should forget him..but it's difficult.

Or maybe the problem lies with me. it's my fault.

Mutual Respect- Does your partner listen when you say you're not comfortable doing something and then back off right away? Respect in a relationship means that each person values who the other is and understands — and would never challenge — the other person's boundaries.

I guess respect is the thing that is lacking..


Tuesday, August 3, 2010

My world came crashing down. I opened up my heart to a new relationship after so long and this is what i get. thks. I'm just going to forget that i knew you. I shouldnt think about it anymore. He's not worth it! He's not worth it!


Monday, August 2, 2010

If you really like her, you would not force her to do things she don't like.
If you really like her, you would wait no matter how long it takes.
If you really like her, you would respect her decisions.

Maybe I was too gullible, believing everything you said.

You could have just told me I was wrong when I questioned you about that. But..you DIDNT.. you even said that you're not going to explain anything, if i think that way then so be it. Why do i feel sad when i hear that?
Probably I should have just forgotten that I knew you.

I believe there is someone right out there.




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